Designed in August 2017, I can't quite remember what was going through my head at this point, but I knew one thing - my love for Buddhas in artwork was growing, as for experimenting with mandala styles and I was quickly becoming very opiniated about the world and the society we live in, and it came out in this piece.
So, this one for me was a hybrid of both digital and hand-drawn, and the mandalas were originally designed to be never paired with anything, I was just enjoying experimenting with layers and testing myself with shapes and flows. But since I was on a roll with Buddha pieces, I kind of wanted to trial it out, see how it worked with a more built up mandala background and a non-whole Buddha crown.
It took a while to sit with me, I was unsure for so long, kept tweaking it, kept messing with it, added more to the crown then took more away, decided the idea was a flop and 'what the hell was I thinking', and the began messing with it in shades of blues... and the blues are what sold me.
Given I was feeling quite anxious at the world we live in, how people can be, how negative the news and the media and paper coverage can be, blue as a colour totally contradicts those feelings, and instead promotes calmness and feeling relaxed, having confidence and feeling secure - everything I needed to feel and started to feel the second I saw this piece shaded blue. The security amongst the darkness, the faith that no matter how dark this world can be, you have to have the confidence that you'll always be okay and make it through.
Quote Bane here "Oh, you think darkness is your ally. But you merely adopted the dark; I was born in it, moulded by it. I didn't see the light until I was already a man, by then it was nothing to me" - huge Batman fan by the way and this is my favourite in the trilogy.
We all know Buddhas represent spiritual enlightenment, and that for me was a reminder in this piece - these feelings that helped to be portrayed with the blue combined with a Buddha representing those calm, serene, peaceful emotions so subtly, it was a reminder that we all get moulded through our darkness. We achieve our highest selves and come steps closer through battling through our dark days - beating what negative thoughts fill our mind and are shared so publicly in the news, showing the most negative footage of robberies, murders, deaths, in recent days COVID numbers. And I think that's why this piece to me holds so much meaning - it's a stark reminder to keep going. Embrace the darkness for the fact there is light, there is hope, the complexities of the universe are hidden amongst the shadows for those who choose to follow their paths to see the light, their own light, that of everyone else's.
So when I shared it twice on social, both times it was a reflection of this -:
"We're too quick to judge, too quick to comment on how someone looks, what others think of us, what's going to happen tomorrow or the day after that to forget that we're alive in this moment. We constantly wait for miracles to happen, things to change, time to pass, being completely unaware that the miracle is life itself."
"There's so much shit going on in this world, terrorism of all forms, negativity surrounding the most positive things going good in your life, people robbing others because they believe they can and find it acceptable to do so, and all we do is wait. We wait for the moment someone does something about it all but we're always too afraid to step up and do it ourselves, we let the fear consume us for our own safety, our own mental block, so we just sit back and wait, we anticipate..."
There's so many interpretations with this piece, the above is just one of many for even me, one thought trail amongst a million others that came to my mind when creating this, feeling grateful that I can be present, I'm here in this moment and I'm able to share this with you all to help you reflect back too.
So why the name 'Anticipation'? To be honest, the name came after the captions for once. I drafted those up once I actually finished the piece because it was a reflection of my thought trails, and it clicked to me, it was a reflection of most of our society these days. Following from the second caption I shared on social with this piece, we already know what happens next with the world - or at least most of the time we do. But because we know this, we conform to this being the norm, without ever challenging what happens next to switch up our own story.
It's like watching a horror movie and you already know the killer is going to run behind you so you run up the stairs to the beat in the background and then you're forced to lock yourself in the bedroom and suddenly have no other choice but to jump from the window - ok, boring, it's too predictable. What if you challenged it - let's hide in a cupboard, come out armed and super brave ready to thrash the killer and make a run for the front door and for once your phone has battery life so you can call the cops and for once they actually get there in time and the killer tries to make a run for it and gets caught - or there could be a house fire, total different ending but you know - hoping you get the thought trail here. We as society these days see all of the negatives in the world and think 'oh gosh that's so terrible', and then wait for someone else or the government or police or somebody to do something about it that isn't us. Well why can't it be us? Why can't we be the one to knock on somebody's door to lend a hand, why can't it be us to chase down someone after they robbed a store or to stop racial abuse amongst another person or to educate people on simple ethnicities and cultural differences? Why do we always leave it to other people?
Because we're afraid, and it's become instilled in us from every element of us growing up. Parents try to protect us from the world rightfully so because even they see how shitty it can be, school teaches us mundane things we never actually retain when we grow up and how to dumb us down so we don't ever work out the system and how to escape it, universities teach us debt and life teaches us heartbreak and painful lessons. Yet we sit there, and wait, and keep waiting hoping things will change one day without us having to take any action - we anticipate...
For those who wish to, you can shop Anticipation Buddha online here.
Thank you for reading & keep your eyes peeled for future piece meanings being shared across the blog and also socials. Feel free to share your thoughts, comments and even your own interpretations in the comments below or if you wish to let me know privately - I'm always social on emails and my social media channels.
One love - Simmy. x