Taking it back to July 2020, Tranquility was designed as a way to remind ourselves to rebalance. We look at Yin Yangs and we immediately think of 'the balance to life - the bad within the good and the good within the bad', but how often do we dive deeper than just that to look at it from a mental, spiritual and emotional point of view?
This one for me was during a time period when I was hating the world basically, because I found it unfair. If you read The Story Behind: Enigma, you'll remember that in June was when I had to accept the cards that were dealt for me and my soul mate and that in this lifetime we're destined to be just friends (as much as I know of for right now), and July I was basically midst breakdown, midst trying to save myself from a breakdown.
But on drawing this one, I started to really look at Yin Yangs, and how it's not just representative of the bad in the good and the good in the bad, it's literally just the flip side to absolutely everything. So before I dive deeper, let me share the original caption it held on social:
TRANQUILITY It's been so long since I designed a Yin-Yang piece that I decided it was time to create something new... It's easy to lose ourselves, easy to break under pressure and push away anything and everyone that supports us in life but it's finding the balance between letting others in and own self mastery that gets us through. Learning how to accept help in difficult situations and how to master your own mind, learning how to grow through what you go through but accepting it takes times too, learning how to find the positives in the negatives but realising every negative is needed too. Yin-Yangs aren't just about the good in the bad and the bad in the good, it's a reflection of our whole life, the flip side to absolutely everything we can think of, and the journey of accepting that, until we achieve tranquility, ultimate peace.
So I probably made it sound not as bad right, of course, can't be making my artwork too negative out here - we ain't about those vibes. But it was a way for me to try and take my anger out of me about the situation into something where I could see both positives and negatives in one view. Our situation was one that was very new to me and I thought was quite uncommon in this day, but it turns out it's not and this is where different family upbringings and aspects of religion come into play (it's also another reason why I dislike religion sometimes, the politics within it as a form of society control). But I couldn't wrap my head around the outcome for so long, us not being allowed to be together, it baffled me. It killed my heart, it still does to be honest but I'm slowly accepting it knowing it's something for other lifetimes just not this one here.
This piece for me was heartbreak, confusion, hurt, anger, but it was also growth, acceptance, understanding and reflection. The good and the bad right. Truth be told, I cried a lot during this piece, because everything I was reflecting on during the drawing stages of it just triggered me, it helped me to heal or at least start healing deeper than what Enigma triggered.
It was the feelings I had when this piece was completed that triggered me the most though and I ended up sharing it on my stories to get others views too:
Am I the only one who finds it madly effed up that yin yangs as beautiful as they are have such a deeper meaning than "this is the good in the bad, and the bad in the good and that's life"??
We have to suffer loss to value company. We have to suffer heartbreak to value love. We have to suffer sadness to value happiness. We have to suffer hardship to value ease. The list goes on and on.
Why the hell do we have to suffer to value something? Even if the suffering is temporary, it's the concept that we still have to do it and go through it just to value s**t!
Are we as a human race collectively that effed up that we were designed in such a way that we have to go through this sh*t just to correct our hearts and our minds?
^Welcome to a deeply hurt and heartbroken Sim, it's not pretty, far from it, but I genuinely believed at that point in time that this concept of having to experience a negative just to value the positive so much more is so so messed up - I still do, I actually hate that concept but now I've grown to understand it more, the world needs balance. Someone close said to me that if the world was all positive we'd never learn to appreciate anything, and the scary thing is that's actually probably very true - a lot of us forget how to even appreciate the simplest things - that we can breathe, we can see, we can hear, taste, touch, smell, the bare basics a lot of the time we're not even grateful for.
Mandalas within a mandala in the shape of a yin yang, it was a way to remind me of the universe and its complexities that everything happens the way it does for its own reasons, some of which we're still trying to learn and work out. Yin yangs are more than the meanings on the surface, they're about every aspect. Our mental health - we have to see it deteriorate for us to do something about it to keep it in good shape. We have to feel the extremity of negative emotions to really value the positive ones. We have to in a sense feel challenged for our spiritual beliefs to believe in them even more or even move away from what we think is our right spiritual path to find the one that is for us.
This piece for me was realising we have to accept the hard times to value the good, but to also accept that the hardship is a necessity for our growth. We all claim we want to grow and heal but how many of us are truly ready to take on the hardship that comes with it? Diamonds form under pressure and flowers need both rain and sunshine to grow - we have to take the negatives with the positives to firm up our roots and stand our ground to grow taller in each moment of life, grow towards our own ascension, grow towards being our best selves. Tranquility was named in light of this - being able to find that peace that lies between accepting both sides of life. Accepting that we have to grow through what we go through, we have to survive a storm for those brighter days, we have to suffer to savour to reach that ultimate form of inner peace.
Thank you for reading & keep your eyes peeled for future piece meanings being shared across the blog and also socials. Feel free to share your thoughts, comments and even your own interpretations in the comments below or if you wish to let me know privately - I'm always social on emails and my social media channels.
One love - Simmy. x